love.

amor. liebe. amore. gra. ljubav. cariad. dragoste. pag-ibig. l'amour.
it is said in so many ways. but its meaning is always the same. at first its when your heart beats so fast that your face turns red. its the butterflies that float around your stomach. its the smile that you cant hide. its the sparkle in your eyes. but even better is the silent ease that you feel with them. the confidence that you feel in their caring for you. the "i would do anything to make you happy." it can sneak up and suprise us. it envelops us in total. it can be for a person. for a thing. for a passion. love. its such a lot of meaning to put in such a small word. four letters- but so much more. i am lucky to have so much of it everyday. but especially this normal wednesday noon.

bittersweet.

this was a week of goodbyes.
goodbye tuesday to my little sister's high school career.
goodbye thursday to my little brothers.
goodbye friday to my best friend as he leaves for his summer internship.

but i dont do well with goodbyes. i am much more a fan of hellos. i feel an ache in my heart every time i utter the word. its not a favorite thing about myself. but alas, it is so.

so today i must finish my bittersweet week. my week of not hellos.

somewhere over the rainbow

"some day ill wish upon a star and wake up where the clouds are far behind me
...

where trouble melts like lemon drops
high above the chimney tops thats where youll find me."
...

is there anything more beautiful than turning the corner to see this? in the midst of the gray, in the dark of the day, there is beauty.

in the shadows

in the shadows lies a dream.
a dream of flowers and of fields.
in the shadow there is brightness.
paled by the darkness of the sun.

and so i think, that the sun creates the shadows. but the sun creates the flower. and the sun creates the day. and the sun creates the rainbow. and the sun creates the smile.
and still, the sun creates the shadow.

so in the shadow lies a dream. a dream of flowers and of fields. in the shadows lies a dream. a dream of the sun.